that being said i really want to learn kickboxing but money =(
i’m on this whole giving back and bettering myself kick right now and i am learning so much and having such a good time and meeting awesome people but also making a real effort at appreciating my daily life at starbucks and trying to be less judgemental and patient and stuff and it is all like woah i have given myself an actual attitude adjustment and it doesnt suck at all tbh
Last night I was at a house party when two Korean Americans walked in. One is from Dallas. He was instantly nicknamed Quarantine by the rest of the party, and I knew he was Korean when he drunkenly shook his face over all of the food and screamed “EBOOLLLAAAAAAAA”
We are both 88 and ended up screaming “CHINGUUUUUU” in each others’ faces. I do not have alcohol as an excuse for doing this. It was a fun night.
Something kinda interesting happened to me, and I don’t know if I can explain it properly but I think people who know me will probably get it.
I had both these conversations on the same day.
A person who doesn’t know me well: How do you only have like 5 friends in Austin?
Me: I’m not friendly.
Him (not with any airs of affection): I know.
Me: When are you coming back to visit? Tmrw? Cool c u then.
A person who I have reliably kept in touch with for over 10 years: haha, dude I miss your persistent positivity.
The lesson I guess, is that it takes me a lot of time to warm up to people but when I have relationships that feel meaningful, they last and I can be a completely different person than what the fuck ever your wack ass first impression is of me. Also maybe the swearing throws people off.
Also fuck that dude bc I would rather have 50 really close friends that I keep in touch with regularly scattered across the world than 5,000 acquaintance weird ass non Rhia approved friendships in fucking Houston, Texas.
Friday afternoon I drove 3 1/2 hours to Houston to stay the weekend with the guy I went to high school with (and also to see my best friend from high school who I haven’t seen in 4 years). We have been having daily long phone conversations where he has been excessively enthusiastic about both me and our future for around 3 weeks and the stars finally aligned for me to drive out to him.
Friday he was fantastic and attentive, albeit unwilling to LET ME SLEEP. I saw people from high school I literally never thought I would see again, was the only person in a room full of college educated people who knew the name of either of Obama’s children and was visibly offended by the screaming of “fag!!!!” when a man got a battle of the sexes question right. I petted a snake and he kissed me in front of his friends like it wasn’t a super huge deal.
Saturday we went to a beer festival with other friends and his mood was unmistakably and unexplainably shittier and only started perking up the next morning for a few hours before I left. He’s meant to come visit me his weekend but after my 6 year string of disappointments I am wary to invest emotionally (time, I do have however) as well as consider applying for jobs in Houston (a city I’m not fond of) just because he lives there when he seems to be physically unable to do alone time Netflix nights in and also a little unbalanced.
What went wrong here???
Also, I still have literally no job leads besides part time work at Starbucks which is the most abysmal thing I have ever done in my life, and I was a bartender on hooker hill for a year so that is saying something.
Send good thoughts into the universe for me, lovelies, I certainly need them. Also if anyone could get me a job in a non republican city that would be great too.
"Three simple rules in life. 1. If you do not go after what you want, you’ll never have it. 2. If you do not ask, the answer will always be no. 3. If you do not step forward, you will always be in the same place."
I have a very very very big and exciting weekend planned and so I very boldly decided to get a hair cut from a new girl in my tiny town today.
Of course the haircut is lovely but I have spots all over my face out of nowhere. CURSE YOU UNIVERSE.
I promise I will give you a life update soon, those of you who don’t have to hear me whine every other day over katalk and/or fb chat.